[He feels himself falter when she looks at him and their eyes meet. If he didn't know better he would think he just got hit by an enemy's attack, a release of pure electricity running up and down his body, clenching his heart. He forces himself to continue, hoping that his pause wasn't too noticeable.
What is he doing? What has he been doing? Tonight, the previous nights... He should have been with her. He wanted to be with her. No matter how or where. Even if it was spending the night locked in the ship, away from the island's madness, even that was better than just not being with her.
He had told Marco, hadn't he? No matter what, no matter if they argued or not, life was so much better when Selphie was there. When she was his. Why had he allowed her to slip away? Because it was better for her? Because she's happier now? Is she really that happy to begin with? Is she over him? Because at times... At times it felt as if maybe there was still something, a part of her that still loves him, but he doesn't know how big that part is. He's not even sure if it exists.
He stops besides her, somehow having closed the distance without really noticing it, busy as he is admiring her and thinking. He will never be able to understand why she is so needy. Why she needs physical contact that much, reassurance that she's loved and wanted. Because... How could anyone not love or want her? She's precious, beautiful inside and outside, even if she is very capable of driving someone up the walls when she decides to go around twisting words and thinking the worst. Then again, after a talk with Kodachi, after understanding why Kodachi wanted to be married so badly... He understood Selphie a bit better.
She just wants to be loved. To be with someone who won't abandon her in an orphanage forever. And she's too much hurt and scared to just firmly believe that just anyone could be the one to do that for her. Because like Kodachi, and unlike him, she hasn't given up to being alone.]
Can I accompany you? If you prefer to be alone right now I could come back later...
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What is he doing? What has he been doing? Tonight, the previous nights... He should have been with her. He wanted to be with her. No matter how or where. Even if it was spending the night locked in the ship, away from the island's madness, even that was better than just not being with her.
He had told Marco, hadn't he? No matter what, no matter if they argued or not, life was so much better when Selphie was there. When she was his. Why had he allowed her to slip away? Because it was better for her? Because she's happier now? Is she really that happy to begin with? Is she over him? Because at times... At times it felt as if maybe there was still something, a part of her that still loves him, but he doesn't know how big that part is. He's not even sure if it exists.
He stops besides her, somehow having closed the distance without really noticing it, busy as he is admiring her and thinking. He will never be able to understand why she is so needy. Why she needs physical contact that much, reassurance that she's loved and wanted. Because... How could anyone not love or want her? She's precious, beautiful inside and outside, even if she is very capable of driving someone up the walls when she decides to go around twisting words and thinking the worst. Then again, after a talk with Kodachi, after understanding why Kodachi wanted to be married so badly... He understood Selphie a bit better.
She just wants to be loved. To be with someone who won't abandon her in an orphanage forever. And she's too much hurt and scared to just firmly believe that just anyone could be the one to do that for her. Because like Kodachi, and unlike him, she hasn't given up to being alone.]
Can I accompany you? If you prefer to be alone right now I could come back later...