[Rikka's faith in them all was gratifying. Knowing that she was in this state of mind now, compared to when Alice had arrived... There was a part of Alice where she was really happy for that fact. Or she would have been, in better circumstances. The rational part of her just wanted to thank Rikka for being herself, for talking to her, for being here for her.
But the rational part of her... was shrinking more and more. That call in her mind was becoming stronger and stronger. There was nothing RATIONAL about what was going on in her head right then. She already couldn't control her own voice enough to TELL Rikka what was actually happening to her.
How long until the rest of her followed? And why couldn't she just head off, now, before she ran the risk of being the one to hurt people?
What she wanted... That overwhelming desire to protect these people she had promised to stand by, the people that she loved...
How was it that, of all things, was feeling so dangerous?]
I... I understand what you're saying... but...
[Her grip on Rikka's hand tightens considerably.]
I can't accept that... even if it is not common, I cannot accept that something out there could take you both from me...
[She looks at her with a fierce but somewhat maddened look.]
And not be able to control it. I won't let that happen. You... you understand, right, Rikka-chan...? It's only because I love you two...
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But the rational part of her... was shrinking more and more. That call in her mind was becoming stronger and stronger. There was nothing RATIONAL about what was going on in her head right then. She already couldn't control her own voice enough to TELL Rikka what was actually happening to her.
How long until the rest of her followed? And why couldn't she just head off, now, before she ran the risk of being the one to hurt people?
What she wanted... That overwhelming desire to protect these people she had promised to stand by, the people that she loved...
How was it that, of all things, was feeling so dangerous?]
I... I understand what you're saying... but...
[Her grip on Rikka's hand tightens considerably.]
I can't accept that... even if it is not common, I cannot accept that something out there could take you both from me...
[She looks at her with a fierce but somewhat maddened look.]
And not be able to control it. I won't let that happen. You... you understand, right, Rikka-chan...? It's only because I love you two...