[His eyes were set at his own knees. His ears caught a glimpse of the tea cup as it reached his side table to rest. He did not look. His eyes were dead to any movement or any noise. Once more he felt the same way he did the afternoon he was playing the piano for Eclair. Everything moving, his hands performing well and his soul tearing itself apart from physical reality - from the place he didn't want to be in. The place which he denied to be his reality.
His expression did not change either as Kyouya sat beside Tamaki. For once he had no words. For once he had no comfort to give. Instead Tamaki simply nodded his head once more at the apology and kept his kuma-chan close.
What was he supposed to say to Kyouya?
Was he really supposed to say anything at all?
He didn't know what to do. All he knew was he kept himself vulnerable to let Kyouya trust him and feel more comfortable. There was a risk of getting hurt. He was a fool to forgot that as he drew Kyouya closer to himself the more power he gave to Kyouya to hurt him.
Then again he trusted Kyouya. He never thought that Kyouya would ever do something that would really hurt Tamaki. He was often blunt with his words, but he never tried to cause real pain to Tamaki. He always playfully teased Tamaki. There was always a calm face as he uttered his heart-shattering words. The face that always told Tamaki that Kyouya doesn't mean it and it is simply to get Tamaki all riled up.]
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His expression did not change either as Kyouya sat beside Tamaki. For once he had no words. For once he had no comfort to give. Instead Tamaki simply nodded his head once more at the apology and kept his kuma-chan close.
What was he supposed to say to Kyouya?
Was he really supposed to say anything at all?
He didn't know what to do. All he knew was he kept himself vulnerable to let Kyouya trust him and feel more comfortable. There was a risk of getting hurt. He was a fool to forgot that as he drew Kyouya closer to himself the more power he gave to Kyouya to hurt him.
Then again he trusted Kyouya. He never thought that Kyouya would ever do something that would really hurt Tamaki. He was often blunt with his words, but he never tried to cause real pain to Tamaki. He always playfully teased Tamaki. There was always a calm face as he uttered his heart-shattering words. The face that always told Tamaki that Kyouya doesn't mean it and it is simply to get Tamaki all riled up.]