It isn't the most important thing to me Lea. You are. But it is important to me.

[He's quiet a moment.]

I didn't say I didn't want to make friends with the people here. I did, but now when we leave here, it's going to hurt again. I don't want that. I don't want to be sad again and I don't want it to hurt. Maybe I can't understand people. I thought going to visit would be okay, but Ace got mad at me about it.

[He sighs and curls up into a little ball.]

Maybe you can't understand me on this one. For me, when I came here, I could've done anything. If I didn't like the Spades, I could have left after we got here. I can go anywhere, right? Maybe? [He isn't sure about that.]

For me, in this place, there wasn't anything else. It was just them. Everyone was so nice and everything and I never experienced that before. Lea, you had a life before everything. You had friends and all kinds of fun things and you can do those things again. I don't...if I don't do them here, what am I going to do, Lea?

I'm..mixing myself up here. I don't regret leaving with you and I would never change my mind on it. That doesn't mean I can just turn the hurt off. I can't stop being sad just because someone yelled at me. If you keep telling me to leave I'm going to start thinking you don't want me here.

[He's quiet a moment before meeting Lea's eyes in a challenge.] Is that true?