Yeah, well, this is what life is actually like. It sucks and it hurts. Stop acting like you're the only one who ever feels like this.

[Lea slams his hand against the mast.]

I do agree with Ace. I'm not gonna lie about that. If you're gonna stay with me, you can't be a Spade anymore. If that's more important to you, then maybe you should go back. I'm not gonna spend every day watching you waste away because you wanna be with them and I'm not going back there. If you're so afraid of ever hurting again, then go back and Marco can baby you as much as he wants because I won't do that, either.

[He slumps, putting all of his weight against the hand that's pressed up against the mast.]

I just can't, okay?