HazMat Log 006 ♔ Impending doom and diabetes

[anelegantmyth]

Who: Hazardous Materials
Where: Breakneck Cay and Candy Mountain
When: 5/23 onwards
What: things and stuff
Warnings: sugarrrrrrr
Style: Any!
Status: Zoo entrance fee is 50 doubloons

Hazardous Materials' May log of doom part 2! Date your stuff, you all know the drill.

5/16-5/22: Sailing to Breakneck Cay
5/23-5/24: Who in their right mind thought it was a good idea to go here?
5/25-5/31: Hunting down Candy Mountain
6/1-6/7: DIABETUS MOUNTAIN

Comments

[by_heart]

[Lea sits back on his heels and rubs at his forehead. It isn't so much what Marco did, more the intent and sentiment behind it, but explaining it to Roxas is going to be pretty much impossible, especially if he's shutting down like this. Better to just abandon that angle and try something different.]

See, this is when he'd give you a big hug and pat you on the head and tell you it's alright and that he'll listen when you're ready and go get you some candy or something. Me, I'm gonna poke you in the face and tell you to stop faking happy for me.

[heartismyown]

[He sighs.]

I don't know what you want Lea. I just don't know.

[by_heart]

[As promised, Lea pokes him in the face.]

Join the club. You're not giving me much to work with, either.

[heartismyown]

[He sighs a little again and just looks at the deck of the crow's nest. He doesn't really have an answer for him.]

Just...just tell me what to do.

[by_heart]

[That's exactly what Lea has been trying very hard not to do.]

Do what'll make you happy, whatever that is. Anything you need from me, you just ask for it, okay?

[heartismyown]

[He's still frowning though, it's all hard.]

Lea, I'm so confused. All of this, this whole fight, I'm so confused. I won't be sad anymore, okay? I won't be sad and, and I'll stay here and we'll be okay. So you don't have to worry about anything. I'll stop complaining. I'll stop hurting everyone. Is that what you want? Is that okay?

I'm tired of you being upset with me. I don't get it all but I guess it doesn't matter. I can stop bothering you.

I'm empty in here. [He taps his chest.] I bet I can turn it off somehow. So...so stop telling me to leave you. Okay? If you want me to I will. I'll go sail by myself, but...

[by_heart]

[Lea places his hands on Roxas' cheeks and squishes them a bit, leaning in with a scowl.]

Listen, Roxas, geez. I'm not telling you to pretend like everything's okay. I'm telling you to do what you need to do to make everything okay. If you don't know what that is and you need help, then you ask. You can't stop worrying me or upsetting me or bothering me because I care about you and that means those things are gonna happen. They're gonna happen even more if you do something stupid like going off on your own. When did I ever say you should do that? All I said was that you should go back with the Spades if it would make you happier. That's all I want for you, okay? For you to be happy.

[heartismyown]

[Roxas nods a little bit when he's finished and licks his lips nervously.]

Okay.

[He just needs to break it down.]

I don't know what will make me happier, but I don't want to leave you. I like being with you.

[He fidgets a moment before pushing off the back of the wall behind him to launch himself into Lea, wrapping his arms around his shoulders.]

I just want to be with you.

[by_heart]

[Lea catches him and holds on tightly.]

Sometimes I question your taste, but I think I'll keep you anyway.

[heartismyown]

[For the second time, he plants a kiss on Lea's cheek before settling into the hug proper.]

I'm sorry I can't just make it happen. I'll work harder, okay?

[by_heart]

[Lea accepts it with a smile and ruffles Roxas' hair once he's made himself comfortable.]

Take your time, just don't leave the rest of us out of it, okay? That's what friends are for.

[heartismyown]

I think I just need time or something. I won't. Well, I'll try not to.

[He's quiet for a moment or two.]

I missed sleeping with you while I was gone. Even if you poke me awake sometimes.

[by_heart]

[Lea blushes slightly. It's a good thing they're somewhere private, because if someone else heard that, they'd get the complete wrong idea.]

That's...that's gonna keep being a thing, huh? You still have your own hammock, you know.

[And they don't have a room to themselves anymore.]

[heartismyown]

[He blinks, it never occurred to him they would stop.]

You don't want to sleep with me?

[Roxas tilts his head backwards so he can look into Lea's eyes.]

[by_heart]

[Lea tilts his own head back partly to hide his blush (which is already creeping down his neck, so it's futile anyway) and partly so he doesn't have to see those big innocent blue eyes staring up at him.]

Do you hafta phrase it like that?

[Seriously, it's embarrassing.]

I don't mind sharing a hammock with you, but...

[Lea makes an exasperated little noise.]

Just...don't go advertising it, okay?

[heartismyown]

Well yeah, I like sleeping with you.

[Roxas fails to see what the problem is.]

I sleep better when you're with me, and it's warmer cause you're really hot.

[It's the fire thing.]

What do you mean? Is it a secret? But we share a room with everyone.

[by_heart]

Please can we not talk about this anymore?

[Lea's voice is a little strangled and he's still fixedly looking at the sky like it's the most interesting thing he's ever seen. What he really wants to do is just toss himself off the crow's nest and escape this conversation.]

[heartismyown]

Huh? Why not? I get weird dreams without you. You make a really comfortable pillow and everything. I only don't like it when you elbow me. Maybe if I hugged you tighter in your sleep you would't wake me.

[by_heart]

Okay, okay! I get it, I get it. Hammock sharing is a go.

[He'll just find some way to explain it if anyone asks.]

[heartismyown]

[He smiles triumphantly.]

Alright! Thanks Lea! Now we can sleep together all the time!

[by_heart]

[DOES HE HAVE TO KEEP SAYING IT LIKE THAT?!]

Right...

[heartismyown]

[Lea's distress is lost on him. They curl up and sleep. He isn't sure what is causing Lea confusion.]

That's good then. Way more comfortable.

[by_heart]

Comfortable. Right. So are you gonna move in up here or can we go back down?

[heartismyown]

I think..I want to stay up here for a little while longer.

[by_heart]

By yourself?

[He feels he needs to ask, considered Roxas is doing the barnacle thing.]