high_seas | The Classics

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Who: The Spade Pirates, Anyone on Deesuko Ballia
Where: The Northern Seas, Deesuko Ballia
When: 2/1 - 2/8
What: General Log Post!
Warnings: Possible swearing, violence. Basically what the Spades are usually up to.
Style: Log and Prose friendly.
Status: OPEN, provided context...
TIMELINE:

2/1 - 2/4 AT SEA
2/5 ARRIVAL AT DEESUKO BALLIA
2/6 - ??? DEESUKO BALLIA

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I can understand, but have you thought that doing that may be what makes him keep secrets? If he worries that it's something you won't take well, and not telling you causes that reaction, it takes no brain to assume that actually telling you would be far worse.

[Roxas frowns at him. He can't help it how he feels, and sometimes he can't even control his emotions at all.]

So what, it's my fault he wants to keep secrets?

[That would be just great too.]

I didn't say that. It's no one's fault, it's natural that you would get angry if you know he's keeping things. And it's natural that he would worry about telling you.

That's the problem with friendships, if one keeps something to protect the other, the other will get angry because their friend isn't "trusting" them. [Ikki shakes his head.] What I'm saying is that no matter how angry you get or how much you fight, if he's set on not telling you... He won't tell you.

Now, you have several options, you can continue as you have been going fighting more and more with your best friend and risk breaking that friendship after one too many fights and upsets... You can trust him and believe in him and stop asking for what he doesn't want to tell... Or you can try to find the answers of what he won't tell you through other means. [A pause.] Hn, you could also try to convince him that there's nothing to worry about if he tells you but if you're not sure why he won't tell you that would be difficult.

[Roxas looks down at the ground as he's thinking about that. He's not sure what he would do. He wants Lea to trust him, but maybe he doesn't. Why does he feel the need to hide things all the time?

Doesn't he feel the same way though? Roxas isn't telling Lea everything either, because it would hurt his feelings. He knows it would. This world is so confusing. Things were simpler on the clock tower, with just Axel and ice cream staring at the sunset.

All of his good memories were there, all the real ones anyway. Well, is any of it real? How about this place? Has he been trapped somewhere again?

Roxas' mind is traveling at the speed of light and he just says nothing.]

[Ikki has never had problems with silence, it's a good companion, sometimes the best of all. Specially when someone needs to think. So he remains silent and lets Roxas take his time as he thinks, his own look wanders but he doesn't think of anything in particular for now. Just in case Roxas finishes his thinking suddenly and requires his attention.]

[He's been a little down lately and this isn't really helping with that. Roxas shifts so he's sitting back against the wall a bit instead of being engrossed in the game.]

I don't really want to play anymore.

[Roxas offers that softly and sighs. He should do something, take his mind off of everything. What that is, he doesn't know yet.]

Then we won't play.

[Ikki hums and eyes the kid for a moment before sighing.]

Sorry, I guess I shouldn't have said any of that.

It's okay, it's not your fault. I just...

[He shakes his head. Roxas isn't sure what to say. He just slumps a little.]

Feel confused? Down?

[Both?]

[He shrugs a little bit.]

I don't know. Maybe. I don't want to fight with Lea, but I don't want him to keep things from me either...but I guess I don't tell him everything either because it just makes him sad, and I don't like that.

[Roxas scratches his head.]

I've had a lot on my mind so it's...I don't know. Hard enough. Lea is important to me, but I don't...sometimes he's the same, but sometimes he's not the same, and he doesn't like Axel and I don't know. It makes my head hurt.

[Ikki snorts lightly at that.]

Welcome to the real world. Where you want others to share things with you yet you yourself keep things from them because you consider that it's better that way. And where even the person you care for the most can drive you up the wall sometimes, and you just won't get it.

The good news are that what you're going through is normal. The bad news are that I don't think anyone knows how to fix that. Guess some people would insist on the importance of talking about it with him, openly and what not, but who knows.

The real world, huh.

[Roxas lets out a weak laugh that wasn't exactly humourous.]

I guess I don't get it, but I don't know. Sometimes we can't seem to talk at all.

I've always thought that talking is overrated at times. Some claim that it's important to talk, but I think that sometimes it's just more important to shut up and deal with things. Just share the company in silence.

There is nothing that says that best friends should know everything of each other, or understand each other perfectly or even like each other completely. Sometimes you can't talk, so what? So long as it's not "we can't ever talk" it's not something to worry about.

[Roxas looks thoughtful at that.]

I don't know sometimes we sit quietly, or we used to. We're not that good at being quiet though. If I don't say anything, he'll start telling me stupid facts no one would ever ask. [He rolls his eyes a bit, but he smiles fondly.]

I guess if I think about it, I don't know that much about him. He knows everything about me though, mostly. He's been around the entire time I've been like this. Xemnas put me in his care. I like him except when he's being a jerk.

[Which is more often then one would think, but Roxas has a fairly high tolerance for Lea's shenanigans, just like Lea has for his.]

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