And I said that because I meant it! Sora had nothing to do with any of that, it's never been a competition or about picking and choosing or anything like that! I told you I liked you that first time because I did. I do.
[Makes a frustrated sound, his hand sliding back into his hair and gripping tight.]
But this thing with Sora... I have tried to put it behind me, I told you, I do my best not to think about it. We have so much shit between us and I've let jealously and resentment get the better of me before, it's not something I'm ever letting happen again on any level. So I shoved it aside because I couldn't go through life wanting him when he didn't feel the same way!
[He only belatedly realizes that his voice was steadily getting louder throughout all that, and he forces it back down to a reasonable level before speaking again, letting his hand fall at the same time.]
I thought, you know. Eventually he'd end up with Kairi and I could...be happy for them. Probably. He never had to know that I...
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[Makes a frustrated sound, his hand sliding back into his hair and gripping tight.]
But this thing with Sora... I have tried to put it behind me, I told you, I do my best not to think about it. We have so much shit between us and I've let jealously and resentment get the better of me before, it's not something I'm ever letting happen again on any level. So I shoved it aside because I couldn't go through life wanting him when he didn't feel the same way!
[He only belatedly realizes that his voice was steadily getting louder throughout all that, and he forces it back down to a reasonable level before speaking again, letting his hand fall at the same time.]
I thought, you know. Eventually he'd end up with Kairi and I could...be happy for them. Probably. He never had to know that I...
[Weakly:] But now. Now it's all messed up.