HazMat Log 006 ♔ Impending doom and diabetes

[anelegantmyth]

Who: Hazardous Materials
Where: Breakneck Cay and Candy Mountain
When: 5/23 onwards
What: things and stuff
Warnings: sugarrrrrrr
Style: Any!
Status: Zoo entrance fee is 50 doubloons

Hazardous Materials' May log of doom part 2! Date your stuff, you all know the drill.

5/16-5/22: Sailing to Breakneck Cay
5/23-5/24: Who in their right mind thought it was a good idea to go here?
5/25-5/31: Hunting down Candy Mountain
6/1-6/7: DIABETUS MOUNTAIN

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[raavashing]

I don't know that there is a way to get past what's blocking me from Raava.

[Wan took a deep breath and tried to settle his emotions.]

But I can try a different focus. Focus on the breath.

[He took another breath and let it out.]

Focus on the light inside.

[He murmured to himself as he took yet another breath, this time coming out like smoke as he shut his eyes.]

On the fire that is life.

[That was definitely a flicker of a flame coming out as let out his next breath. Tiny, like a candle.]

[the_dancing_dork]

[Leo stepped back to give Wan breathing room. He watched cautiously in case he reacted in pain again. Instead, his eyes widened at the flicker of flames. Well, as long as it didn't get to Toothless levels, he could deal.]

[raavashing]

[Fire was all about control. Control of the the breath and control of the self. It was the first element Wan had mastered. When his emotions were at their most turbulent, he looked to the fire within to control himself and stay calm. If he didn't, he would become a danger to himself and all around him.

Though Leo couldn't know it, the fact that any fire was escaping Wan was a bad sign of how twisted up inside he was. There shouldn't have been any fire coming out at all. He was fighting himself to maintain peace and it was not an easy battle.

Wan repeated his mantra - Focus on the light. On the fire inside - over and over a dozen times or more before the flickers of candle flame and smoke stopped coming. It took him far too long to calm himself. And though it did come, he couldn't quite get back to the point of opening his chakras.

Which only served to frustrate him. But at least there wasn't a physical reaction by the elements around him.

He groaned as he finally slumped, depressed and giving up for the moment.]

How long did it take you the first time you tried?

[the_dancing_dork]

The first time I tried? I didn't get it at all. It took me a good few months to finally do it properly, and even then I could only do it for so long before I got frustrated. It takes a lot of practice and patience to get meditating down, but once you do it helps a lot. It just takes time, is all.

[raavashing]

[He laid back, arms stretching out above his head.]

You know I had it. I had it. I was there, at peace, touching Raava, everything perfect. Now I can't get my head back to it. This is so... so stupid. I don't even know who's fault it is, either! It could be that Davey Jones guy who brought us here or it could be Vaatu's action in a life ten thousand years after mine. And I have no way of knowing which it is or how to fix it.

[Quieter, weaker.]

I had it.

[the_dancing_dork]

[Well he wasn't expecting that outburst. He let Wan go on though as he tried to think of that to do now. What would Master Splinter do in a situation like this?]

I understand that you're frustrated, and I don't know about this Raava or Vaatu that you're talking about. But I do know that the only way that you're going to get back home, you have to try and deal with things as they are. Davy Jones brought us here and until we get those shards we're stuck here, so until then we have to just endure this, then once this is over yo can go back and fix things. But if you want to have any chance of that happening, you need to calm down. It's not going to happen in a day, it'll take time and until that times comes we just have to soldier on. Question is are you willing to go through this and get back to where you need to be?

[raavashing]

[Wan was quiet for a long time, just laying there, staring at the ceiling. When he spoke, it was in a normal tone. Though there was still sadness in it, it was mostly just acceptance.]

Raava is the other half of my soul. She is the Spirit of Light and Peace to whom I am bonded. I have tried to touch her twice now, to hold my center together with her. Both times it has been cut off by my body feeling like it's being torn asunder.

I will do anything to be able to touch her again. I just don't know that I can here because I don't know what it is that keeps shoving those... shards of pain through our spirit.

[He rolled his head to look at Leo.]

She is the first thing I thought of when I thought of a focus. She is peace. It's difficult for me to focus on something else. To... rip my own mind away from where she waits within me. I want to learn this. So... I guess... I want to find a way to focus on something else without being distracted by fighting myself when I try to follow the path that leads to her.

[the_dancing_dork]

[Leo waited and listened as Wan spoke, nodding in understanding as he turned to look at him.]

I see. Well that definitely will make trying to meditate difficult. Well the first step is finding a focus outside of Raava that isn't going to make you go into any pain. It's probably going to take some time, considering the kind of relationship you have with this spirit. But I'm willing to help you, if you're willing to keep going.

[raavashing]

I am.

[Wan sat up, getting back into the lotus position and took a deep breath. Getting back to the point of breathing properly was easy.]

Let's try this again.