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Who: Riku + Spade Pirates
Where: The ship.
When: Anytime during the Halloween Event!
What: SORA IS DEAD, Riku is a vampire, basically this week has sucked. :|
Warnings: Depressed Riku, I guess -- trying to keep his mopey lame times contained in one place, haha.
Style: Whichever! But I'm probably sticking with [brackets].
Status: Closed to the crew, whoever is interested (if anyone, totally cool if you want to avoid Riku being pathetic everywhere lol).

[Riku is basically either holed up in his ~~and Sora's~~ room, staring blankly at nothing, or he's up in the crow's nest, watching the sea. He'll still do whatever duties he has around the ship, of course, but his brain is totally elsewhere and overall he's not going out of his way to talk to anyone really. Save maybe Kairi ~~if she's around~~.

Also that whole bloodlust thing? Yeah. He's ignoring it. And ignoring the need to eat or drink anything at all, really. WHO NEEDS SUSTENANCE. 8D]

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[Kairi was still around, for now and during the time she had spent putting on a brave as face as possible, but underneath the brave face is a girl who had cried her share of tears, her slight red eyes proved this face as she had gone in search of Riku, to make sure he is okay and to be there for him. So first bet is to head toward his room.

So hoped that she could be helpful.]

Riku... Is it okay if I come in?

[She only has to say his name for him to recognize who it is, and he's up and at the door, pulling it open before she even finishes her question.

Because geez, how selfish is he, he's been so caught up in his own grief that he nearly forgot Kairi was in exactly the same boat.

He's reaching for her as soon as the door is open, eyes wide, his expression a mix of apologetic and worried as one hand lands on her shoulder, the other clutching the door frame.]

Kairi—god, Kairi, I...

[I'm sorry?

I meant to check on you?

I can't believe I didn't check on you?

I can't believe this happened?

A thousand things he wants to say pile up in his throat, including about ten different ways to ask if she's okay, but of course he knows the answer to that one already.

Neither of them are okay.

In the end, he doesn't say anything. He just looks at her, feeling helpless, and then tugs her forward into an embrace.]

[She understood that maybe being quiet was the best thing for now. After all given what happened would talking actually help?

She slowly wrapped her around him, hoping that in a way it would help the both of them. Maybe it wouldn't fully but at least knowing they could at least stand by each other through such a difficult time might help.

She hoped. She really hoped.]

I'm sorry, Riku.

[And she was. She was sorry for many things. Not being right there at the time to help, not being to help at all. If this had taught her anything it's that death could happen to anyone, even someone she considered to be strong and that she was completely powerless to help or do anything useful and that scared her. She wanted to help, she wanted to stand with her friends and fight, but she couldn't like she was now and with that thought in her mind she buried her head slightly, the tears that she had tried to hide had started to flow.]

[He tightens his hold on her, resting his chin on top of her head, and she can hide her face all she wants but Riku can tell she's crying and it hits him like a punch to the gut.

Maybe this is why he hadn't gone to find her, maybe even why he'd subconsciously been avoiding it a bit. It makes it all too real, too awful and final, and there's something squeezing painfully in his chest that's making it hard to breathe and suddenly he's not sure he can stand anymore.

So he doesn't, he uses the hand still clutching at the door frame to steady himself as he lowers the two of them to the ground, and then turns to collapse back against the wall. He gathers Kairi up, pulling her against his chest and wrapping his arms fully around her.]

...I'm sorry, too.

[The words are barely a whisper, his voice hoarse, and there's a burning behind his eyes that he tries to ignore as he squeezes them shut.]

[Her hands gripped tighter as she leant in, she didn't think the way things were that this could possibly happen. She knew she needed to talk, but she wasn't sure how she could. It could just make the both of them much sadder than they were already were and she didn't want that. But is keeping it in all that healthy either?

With a snuffle, she moved one hand, using it to wipe away the tears before looking up slightly. What to say, or even do in this type of situation?]

I...I know that I wouldn't of been much help but... What's happened has made me realize that... In order to protect those I care about, I need to get better at fighting. [Her eyes glanced down to the floor, the tears had started to build up once more as she tried to force them not to.] But... [She moves her hand, putting it lightly on Riku's chest before moving to put the other on her own.]

Even though Sora... [She takes a deep breath, as much as she so wished it wasn't the case, someone had to say it.] Isn't with us anymore. He'll always be in our hearts and we'll always cherish every moment we had with him.

[Riku knows she's right, of course, Sora was his best friend and he's going to carry that around with him for the rest of his life—but it still hurts to hear. Talking about it...is something he should do, he really should, but he's having a hard time making the words come.

He can let Kairi talk, though. He can be there for her, at least. It's what Sora would have wanted.

So he just wearily nods, silently agreeing that he'll always be with them.

He can comment on the first part, though, in a low, gruff voice. Because it still makes him angry to think about.]

You couldn't have done anything.

[...Which comes out harsher than he'd intended. He takes a deep breath before speaking again.]

Sorry, I meant—fighting wouldn't have helped, it just. That thing just touched him. There wasn't a warning, there was no time—no chance to do a damn thing.

[She pause for what could only be a brief moment.]

I'm sorry. I guess that's true, there could of been nothing done. All we can do now is... [A pause once more. She wasn't sure what exactly it was that she wanted to say, what could they do next. It would still take some time.]

We'll just think it over. I mean we're here until we find what we need.

Don't apologize...

[Sighs, letting his head rest back against the wall.]

I guess now we just keep trying to get back home. God, and that's going to suck. ...It's weird, isn't it? I keep thinking he's going to jump out from behind a wall somewhere and say it was all a big joke. And then I'll smack him because it's a terrible joke.

[She nodded. To be honest she keeps hoping and believing that what happened wasn't sure and that he'll come back later and they'd just tell him off and all would be fine. But she knew that this wouldn't be the case.]

It is rather. Then again before this whole adventure started, we wouldn't have even dreamed of anything like this happening. [She leans forward slightly.]

I keep thinking he'll just turn up too, so it's not just you.

It just hasn't sunk in yet.

[Sighs agaaaiin.]

I don't really want it to. Though, you know if he saw us like this he'd tell us to stop moping around.

He would. So maybe we should eventually follow what he would tell us.

[But right now, she didn't want to. For now at least.]

[Just nods and tightens his arms around her.]

Yeah...eventually sounds about right.

[She nods slightly, choosing now to keep quiet. For now she knew wouldn't be the time to move forward, later really was the best time. Her words she believed in and she really hoped they would work on Riku after all, she wanted to help him and this was the only way.

But for now while her mind was clear and set on helping she simply moved in to hold him close, because for now she knew that's all she could do.]

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