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[For some reason, that statement really bugs Roxas. His eyes narrow a little and he leans back subconsciously.]

No, I don't. I don't have anything to say on that to you or anyone else. Just forget about it.

[Since when is Lea upset about him making friends. When did this happen? Where was he?]

Why are you looking at me like that?

Like what? How am I supposed to look when you won't talk to me?

[And now they're fighting. Great.

He hasn't been able to be there, not when Roxas disappeared in their world or when he died in this one, or when he first appeared here, or when he came back after the poisoning, and now that he's trying to be, what good is it doing? None at all. Some best friend he is.]

It's not like that Lea!

[Roxas is frustrated. He tugs at his own hair and groans a little bit. God, this is so hard sometimes.]

Do you not want me to meet other people? I don't get what's going on here.

[Maybe Lea's not the only one who can pick fights.]

Maybe it's not me who doesn't want to talk.

It's not that! It's not...it's just...

[Well, he can't deny that it stings that Ikki was the one to find Roxas on Aeolipile and bring him back. It's not that he minds Roxas having other friends, but he doesn't like Ikki's attitude about the whole thing, especially since the guy has never said so much as one word to him.

He can't deny that he doesn't want to talk about all this, either.]

I don't know. Forget it.

Don't just say forget it!

[Roxas brings down a fist on the railing, hard.]

I. Don't. Understand. Explain it to me!

[Lea's eyes go wide. He's been on the wrong end of Roxas' temper before, but never when he didn't expect it. He can't help but flinch, shifting on the rail and looking even further off to the side.]

You know what Thatch said to me the other day? That I need to let you figure things out on your own instead of answering all your questions, that that's a habit I need to break you of. I know he doesn't understand, you know, how things were before, but...

[He's right and Lea knows it and he doesn't like it. When those questions are gone, what's going to be left? Isn't that what Roxas needs him for?]

[Is Lea serious right now? Roxas takes a few sharp breaths, his hands clenching tightly. He brings them down on the railing again, furious with Lea.]

What is that?! So because he said that, you're not going to talk to me? He's not Saix you know! He's not Xemnas!

[Roxas raises his hands and shoves at Lea.]

If you don't want to talk to me just say so! I'm sorry I was upset! [Unlike other times, he doesn't mean that.] I'm not a toy for you either! Can't you just say what you mean?

[Roxas shoves him a second time. It's Lea who's pissing him off and he'll get the brunt of his anger.

He pushes away from the railing, pacing a little. He doesn't know how to deal with his anger without lashing out, but at this point he's not even tempted to try. He summons Oblivion and holds it out to Lea.]

You want to have it out, huh?!

[Lea hops off the rail and holds his arms out wide. If Roxas wants to hit him, he can just hit him. It's not like he doesn't deserve it. If he wants him to fight back, he can do that, too. It's not like Lea stands a chance of winning.]

So this is what it's come to.

[It's just like what went through his head back when Riku had brought him the news about Roxas. Sora always comes back, Roxas always leaves, and Lea always gets left behind. It's just how the universe works, apparently. Him and his big mouth, him and his stupid decisions. He might have been able to work up a retort, but that mention of Saïx was a punch to the gut that he didn't need. There were similarities there that he hadn't considered, that Roxas couldn't even know about, that just drove home that he was starting the whole cycle again with Thatch, trying to find a replacement, trying to put back together the life he'd screwed up the first time around. Pathetic.]

Edited 2014-02-03 04:46 (UTC)

[Lea is thinking far more complicated then Roxas is. He doesn't know much about Axel and Saix, but Saix brings the orders, that's what Roxas knows. Thatch is telling Lea what to do. It's the same thing, isn't it?

All the same, Roxas is standing there, breathing heavily from his rage, blade out and serious.]

If you don't want to talk, you never want to talk, then arm yourself because I'm not going to hold back!

[Ironic, that this had all started because Roxas wouldn't talk to him.]

Not really in the mood. Get a few hits in if it'll make you feel better.

[Damn it Lea. Roxas isn't going to take his sword to Lea if Lea's not going to fight back. He swings his blade down into the deck three times, letting out a cry of frustration. Lea's not playing fair. Finally Oblivion vanishes as he slumps to his knees. Roxas is still angry, slamming his fist on the deck instead.]

[Really, Lea had been expecting Roxas to get at least one hit him. To see him fall to his knees like that is a bit of a shock. He's seen him that angry before, but never like this. His arms drop to his sides and he leans back against the rail, afraid to approach and totally at a loss as to what to do for him.]

Roxas, listen...

[Roxas is angry, but he's not going to play dirty, especially against Lea. It's good he doesn't approach, because Roxas would probably punch him instead.

There's a pause before he answered, his words full of bite.]

So what, now you want to talk?

Hey, you wouldn't talk to me, either!

[Not exactly diplomatic, but true. Still not the right answer to Roxas' question, though. As usual.]

[Lea was pushing his every nerve, because they could do that between them. The worst thing about fighting with friends is that you can make it really hurt.]

Yeah, well, you don't want to talk to me about it, I don't know why you're playing the best friend card when you're lying!

[He won't swing a sword at Lea unarmed, he does however raise his hand and shoot a fireball into the railing beside him as a warning.]

[A fireball won't do much to him, but those words...Roxas might as well have stabbed an icicle through his heart.]

You're right. Well, it's your card to take away, kid.

[His voice is weak, defeated. He's not even sure how things got this bad, this fast, but he's pretty sure it's his fault.]

[It's because Fire won't hurt him much that Roxas chose it out of his three spells. He's staring at Lea with hurt, angry eyes.]

I don't want to take it away! I want you to...

[That's it. He can't spit out what he wants to say, he's not sure how to put it. He wants Lea to stop acting like this. Goading him into fights, and trying to be his friend but closing himself off to Roxas. Anything uncomfortable comes along and they argue, because Lea won't talk to him and Roxas is desperately trying to keep Lea happy, but he's tired. He's tired, and he's feeling alone, like he does when Lea shuts himself off and he's not sure how to say any of that.]

Want me to what?

[It's a tiny glimmer of hope and he doesn't let himself hold too tightly to it. There are countless ways to finish that sentence and he has no reason to expect a positive one. Countless ways to finish that sentence and very few that Lea won't do if Roxas asks it of him.]

[When pressed, Roxas lets out another frustrated groan and runs his hand through his hair. Gah!]

I can't...I don't know...just give me a second here!

[It's more of his own problem at this point, isn't it?]

I don't like this. I don't want to fight with you but I hate it when you won't talk to me. It's really annoying!

Sorry.

[He means it, too. Roxas deserves better than what he has to put up with from him.]

It's not my favorite thing either, it's just how I ended up.

[There was so much he'd had to shield Roxas from that it had just become second nature, keeping as much of the ugliness of the world away from him as possible, even if that ugliness was inside Axel himself. Lea himself, now.]

Just...I don't know. I don't know anymore.

[Roxas' fists smooth out against the deck, his palms flat. His energy is leaving him as he calms down and he stares at the deck. Well, Lea wins again, ultimately, he's not willing to push to talk anymore.]

Roxas...

[Lea sighs heavily and pushes off the rail. He's not quite sure where to move to or what to do next, so he ends up awkwardly crouched down next to Roxas, just within arm's reach, but no closer.]

I really am sorry. I mean that. I shouldn't keep things from you, but...

[But he's afraid of what will happen if he doesn't. Before, it was to keep Roxas happy and sane and in one piece, now it's because he doesn't want to ruin this second chance at life for him, except now he's not really succeeding at that, is he?]

You're always keeping things from me. Anything important, you keep it from me.

[He finally meets Lea's eyes. His tone comes out defeated more than anything, and soft, very soft.]

Aren't I your best friend?

[All the barking he does about their friendship, Lea doesn't really say the same.]

Of course you are.

[Lea reaches out, not quite feeling like it would be okay for him to ruffle Roxas' hair and settling for just brushing the tips of it with his fingers instead.]

It's not like I'm keeping anything fun from you. Anything I'm not telling you...you probably don't want to know it.

Yes I do! You don't have to decide stuff like that for me!

[He sighs a bit.]

Like before, I was asking you about me. You know secrets about me, don't you?

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These two are master communicators.

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