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The Classics

Who: The Spade Pirates, Anyone on Deesuko Ballia
Where: The Northern Seas, Deesuko Ballia
When: 2/1 - 2/8
What: General Log Post!
Warnings: Possible swearing, violence. Basically what the Spades are usually up to.
Style: Log and Prose friendly.
Status: OPEN, provided context...
TIMELINE:

2/1 - 2/4 AT SEA
2/5 ARRIVAL AT DEESUKO BALLIA
2/6 - ??? DEESUKO BALLIA

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[Roxas takes them and sets them at his side before going again. He pulls up two clovers on chance and cheers a bit. Lucky!]

Someone got lucky, eh?

[He chuckles and goes for another pair, again trying for the suns. This time he succeeds in getting the pair and he sets it aside.]

Yeah, that one was pretty good!

[For the next few turns, Roxas doesn't get anything at all, although a few symbols were repeating. If he saw a repeat he'd pause and try and find it, but for the most part his memory isn't exactly perfect. He doesn't seem to frustrated though, after all it's just for fun.]

[Ikki does a bit better, though by bit it means that he just gets a couple of pairs. He's too focused on Roxas actually, though by now most of the pieces have been revealed at least once so it's just a matter of time before they get paired.]

By the way, did you get help to set the train?

Uh, no not yet. You were gone for awhile.

[Roxas does get some pairs. He's not as good as Ikki, and if Ikki swooped them all up in one go, it might bother him, but for the most part the game isn't too bad. It could be fun to play it with Lea too.]

What, couldn't Lea help you with that?

[He would have expected so at least. Though with so many pairs he thinks the game would be better with more people playing.]

I dunno, I didn't really ask him.

[Also he seemed kind of mad at Ikki and it seemed like a bad idea.]

We've been fighting a little bit. Maybe I just need more sleep though, he woke me up early yesterday when he elbowed me in his sleep.

Oh... What have you been fighting about?

[Roxas scratches his head a little bit, ruffling his own hair in the process.]

Mostly the same stuff we always fight about, at least I think so. He's always hiding stuff from me, or I don't know. I wasn't...wasn't feeling that good and I think I...

[He grumbles.]

I can't tell him some things. It makes him sad. I don't like it when he's sad, it makes my chest hurt.

Hmmm, have you asked him why he hides things from you? Maybe he has a good reason for it.

[Ikki doesn't really bet on that but it's a possibility.]

[He grumbles a little.]

He won't tell me that either.

Oh.

[A long pause as he reaches for another two pieces.]

Then probably it's because he just doesn't want you to know because he's worried about you. Or doesn't really know the answers and doesn't want to admit that he doesn't know.

[The last part is said with slight disdain and a shrug. It could be, but that would be quite a stupid reason.]

I know it's probably because of that, but I hate it. I don't like it when he keeps secrets, and then I get mad at him and we fight.

I can understand, but have you thought that doing that may be what makes him keep secrets? If he worries that it's something you won't take well, and not telling you causes that reaction, it takes no brain to assume that actually telling you would be far worse.

[Roxas frowns at him. He can't help it how he feels, and sometimes he can't even control his emotions at all.]

So what, it's my fault he wants to keep secrets?

[That would be just great too.]

I didn't say that. It's no one's fault, it's natural that you would get angry if you know he's keeping things. And it's natural that he would worry about telling you.

That's the problem with friendships, if one keeps something to protect the other, the other will get angry because their friend isn't "trusting" them. [Ikki shakes his head.] What I'm saying is that no matter how angry you get or how much you fight, if he's set on not telling you... He won't tell you.

Now, you have several options, you can continue as you have been going fighting more and more with your best friend and risk breaking that friendship after one too many fights and upsets... You can trust him and believe in him and stop asking for what he doesn't want to tell... Or you can try to find the answers of what he won't tell you through other means. [A pause.] Hn, you could also try to convince him that there's nothing to worry about if he tells you but if you're not sure why he won't tell you that would be difficult.

[Roxas looks down at the ground as he's thinking about that. He's not sure what he would do. He wants Lea to trust him, but maybe he doesn't. Why does he feel the need to hide things all the time?

Doesn't he feel the same way though? Roxas isn't telling Lea everything either, because it would hurt his feelings. He knows it would. This world is so confusing. Things were simpler on the clock tower, with just Axel and ice cream staring at the sunset.

All of his good memories were there, all the real ones anyway. Well, is any of it real? How about this place? Has he been trapped somewhere again?

Roxas' mind is traveling at the speed of light and he just says nothing.]

[Ikki has never had problems with silence, it's a good companion, sometimes the best of all. Specially when someone needs to think. So he remains silent and lets Roxas take his time as he thinks, his own look wanders but he doesn't think of anything in particular for now. Just in case Roxas finishes his thinking suddenly and requires his attention.]

[He's been a little down lately and this isn't really helping with that. Roxas shifts so he's sitting back against the wall a bit instead of being engrossed in the game.]

I don't really want to play anymore.

[Roxas offers that softly and sighs. He should do something, take his mind off of everything. What that is, he doesn't know yet.]

Then we won't play.

[Ikki hums and eyes the kid for a moment before sighing.]

Sorry, I guess I shouldn't have said any of that.

It's okay, it's not your fault. I just...

[He shakes his head. Roxas isn't sure what to say. He just slumps a little.]

Feel confused? Down?

[Both?]

[He shrugs a little bit.]

I don't know. Maybe. I don't want to fight with Lea, but I don't want him to keep things from me either...but I guess I don't tell him everything either because it just makes him sad, and I don't like that.

[Roxas scratches his head.]

I've had a lot on my mind so it's...I don't know. Hard enough. Lea is important to me, but I don't...sometimes he's the same, but sometimes he's not the same, and he doesn't like Axel and I don't know. It makes my head hurt.

[Ikki snorts lightly at that.]

Welcome to the real world. Where you want others to share things with you yet you yourself keep things from them because you consider that it's better that way. And where even the person you care for the most can drive you up the wall sometimes, and you just won't get it.

The good news are that what you're going through is normal. The bad news are that I don't think anyone knows how to fix that. Guess some people would insist on the importance of talking about it with him, openly and what not, but who knows.

The real world, huh.

[Roxas lets out a weak laugh that wasn't exactly humourous.]

I guess I don't get it, but I don't know. Sometimes we can't seem to talk at all.

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