[Wince. Massive wince. He cracks an eye open, then opens both and sits up straighter so he can lean forward a bit. He wants to move over there, closer to Natsuno, but doesn't.]

I can't not.

[His voice sounds a little more desperate than he'd like, like he's looking for approval or something, but he knows that's not Natsuno's job to give it to him. This is a decision he has to make by himself, and then he has to own up to it.]

It doesn't mean anything is going to happen, it's just...a conversation we have to have. But I don't think you should have to wait around while we figure things out. I can't ask you to do that.