fiery violent pirate babies

[hiken]

Who: The Spade Pirates. Babies.
Where: Somewhere on the ocean, constantly circling the same reef. Babies.
When: May 15th - May 18th Babies.
What: IDK, look at the subject header.
Warnings: Babies.
Style: Action, Log, Babies.
Status: Babies.

General catch-all for baby-things! Make your own threads, babies. /slaps

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[booyaka_boom]

*Selphie turns away again, so confused with what is going on. For so long she's wanted to hear him say that, but it was very different, coming from his eight year old self. She bites her lip, thinking of how best to explain all of this, how to say it without showing how upset she is*

Well, it's all quite confusing. But I think... I didn't say the right things or do the right things. I wanted to, but it came out all wrong. It's like... You know that way that sometimes your body is full of so many feelings that you don't know what to do with them? It was like that, and I made mistakes and did things wrong.

*She can't help but think back to her reactions on the boat, to what she said and did in the crow's nest. She's often wondered what might have happened if she'd said or done something even slightly differently*

You're not bad, though, Ikki. You shouldn't think that you are bad. I think some days you just didn't like me... but that's not your fault...

*Selphie pauses, clearing her throat and swiftly sniffing back tears*

I'm just - I'm just so sorry that I wasn't strong enough to fix it, or to stop everything from breaking in the first place.

[giovaneuccellodifuoco]

[Ikki's confused frown only grows more and more as she speaks. He really can't understand it. His body being full of many feelings and not knowing what to do with them? He has never experienced that, he just does as his feelings say, if they say anything. Then again, nothing with Selphie makes sense, nothing has made sense for a long, long time to him. The last time things made sense was back at the beach and that was so long ago he could barely remember it. And yet it's the clearest memory of all, because the next ones are kind of empty, too dark and foggy and all he knows is that everything was bad and ugly. Everything hurt as it hadn't hurt ever before. Not even when his mother died and he was left alone with a newborn baby, with no idea of what to do or where to go.

Once more, he looks at the train set. He had bought it to try to make up to her, to try to use it as a way to start fixing things. But he never got around to give it to her, was this why? Because he realized that it couldn't be fixed? That nothing mattered anymore? Maybe that was why, but now he doesn't really remember even if he's coming to understand it.

The child sighs before he makes a humming sound and moves to stand up.]

I don't really get it yet. But I get that it can't be fixed at all, right? If so... It's okay. It's sad, but it's still okay.

Because in the streets with just Shun, all I had was Shun. I never really had anything else, not that lasted. At first I tried to keep some toys, but I ended losing them or they ended breaking. And do you know? Going around while holding broken toys or trying to fix them when you can't is difficult and makes you distracted, too distracted to take care of the things that aren't broken. And at the end I ended losing everything but Shun.

I don't really know if it applies here but, if it can't be fixed... There's no way around it. It can't be fixed, that's all. I'm going to miss you and I still wish it could go back to how it was, but I won't bother you again. It's not fair for you, is it? To keep trying to fix something that's broken and can't be repaired, even if I could put it again, it wouldn't be the same, it will still be broken. I think I got that before and that's why I didn't give you the train set, but I get it now again. I don't regret giving you the train set though, I hope it can still make you happy.

[He stands there for a moment, scratching his leg through his pants as he looks at her, a frown and a pout in his face.]

Hmm, I'm sorry for all the bad things I did. Thank you for letting me play with you this one last time. I'm gonna look for Marco now, bye!

[And with that he heads for the door and the hall, to start a new search for Marco.]

[booyaka_boom]

I don't really get it either... And maybe one day it can be fixed, but we just have to figure out what it is.

*Selphie chews on her lip, shifting uncomfortably, wanting to tell him that he doesn't have to ignore her, or leave her alone, that he can come back to her if he wants to, that she wants to sit and talk with him even after the curse is over... But she's confused him enough already, and the poor boy is only young. Besides, she's still unsure of how much of this conversation he'll remember later*

I'm - I'm sorry for all the bad things I did too.

*Her voice chokes a little as she looks at Ikki, undecided about reaching out for a hug. But she's scared of thinking about how angry adult Ikki might be about that, if he remembers. Still, she puts on a bright smile and nods her head*

Alright. Go have good fun with Marco! Thank you so much for the train set - it really is so special and it's made me really happy. So...yeah, thank you, Ikki.