high_seas | Giant Spiders Oh My

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Giant Spiders Oh My

Who: the current Hazmats
Where: sailing to Manahana-lia Island, then on the island
When: August 27 through September 5th
What: sailing as fast as they can to rescue Cynthia, and the rescue thereof. They'll try to save time by jumping through Empieza but...
Warnings: spiders. Violence, talk of death, Gan Ning's mouth
Style: whatever you want, don't mind the setup
Status: closed to Hazmat crew

The minute the scream came though his journal, Gan Ning was moving. There was no time to waste fiddling around, they had to set sail to find Cynthia before it was too late. He tore through any maps and information they had on the ship, looking for anything that suggested spiders. Her clue, the spider-webs, meant that was all he had to go on. Fortunately, other pirates around the docks totally knew which island that was, and aside from impressing on him the "don't go there" part of the legend, told him where to find it.

It did seem odd that no matter where they were, if they set sail for Isla Empieza, they'd make it there in a day or so instead of weeks. Gan Ning relied on that, even though he didn't do more than skim through the harbor before setting a new course for Manahana-lia in the far west of the land. Hopefully weather wouldn't be against them. They had a long way to go and didn't have Wan there to guide the winds in their favor.

Spiders, the other pirates said. There'd be large spiders and his crew would be killed. Nope, Xingba would not let anyone die if he could help it. But that meant they'd have to fight. Roxas needed to heal so he could guard the ship, but everyone else, well...

Let's hope they make it on time.

[ooc: info on the island is here - make and date your own sailing threads but we'll hit the island about the 3rd or 4th and there'll be a fight log for that]

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That's where you're wrong Roxas. We went to look for you because you're our friend, you're part of this crew and we love you.

Family sticks together no matter what. That's why Ning and the guys dropped everything to come get me, and that's why we searched high and low the moment we realized you went missing.

You love me?

[His brow furrows in confusion. Why would they? He hasn't been that nice, or around or anything. Lea was right about that, he's been gone a lot. He doesn't know their names and they don't really know him.]

I thought that before...but I was...when I left, after they said I was family, they got really mad at me.

[He reaches back and brushes his fingers on the back of his neck where his tattoo is.]

Ace didn't want me around anymore, but he...Marco said he changed his mind and I...

[He lets out a whine of frustration.]

If they were really your friends, they would accept you no matter what you choose. Friends never try to control friends, Roxas. Remember that.

I mean, were we mad when you chose to visit your old crew instead of trying to get to know your new one? We weren't. Instead, we gave you the freedom to do things at your own pace.

I bet you don't even know my name right now.

I think Lea was kind of mad.

[He doesn't really know what the other people think, at all. At her words though, he can't fight the dark pink blush spreading across his nose.]

Um...no. But that's not really because I went there!

The point is, the Spades had absolutely no right to get mad at you because you chose to leave.

A true family is based off love and acceptance, and no matter how much they say they love you, getting mad at you for making your own decisions doesn't show acceptance, Roxas. Do you understand? That's not family, that's taking advantage.

They don't?

[Originally he thought that. He thought it was stupid that they should get mad at him.]

Well..I didn't think they would get that mad. I thought it was going to be okay and then it wasn't and I just want it to be okay again!

[He chews on his bottom lip. Taking advantage?]

Why would they do that? They care about me!

Roxas...

[ She curls her finger under his chin and tilts his head up to face her. See how serious she's being right now? ]

You said it yourself. Marco said you weren't family unless you did things for him. Even if you didn't like it. Roxas, if he truly cared, he wouldn't force you into anything, and if the others really cared, they wouldn't get mad at you for choosing to go with someone you truly cared about. It pains me to say this, but sometimes "caring" and "loving" are two words that could be thrown around so easily.

You may not know this Roxas, but everyone in this crew, we're all truly worried about you. You're definition of family is having to do something before you're accepted. But that's not how it works. That's NEVER how it works.

[He meets her gaze, but he is intensely frustrated by the whole thing.]

Yeah, I know, but in the Organization I had to do missions too. It isn't that surprising to me.

[But he can honestly say they didn't care about him, not even a little bit. It ended badly, just like when he left the Spades. He just wants something that's positive for awhile. Is that so wrong?]

Why are you worried about me?

[He finally looks away.]

Nobodies probably can't have families. [Just like he can't have a lot of things.]

But you DO have a family, Roxas. You have Lea, and me, and everyone on this ship. We already accept you for who you are. All we ask is that you try and give us a chance to prove to you that we love you more than the Spades every will.

It'll take time, some effort and a little understanding if we don't get it right the first time. But we're all trying really hard to make you understand that, no matter what, we just want you to be happy here.

[He's quiet, processing what she's saying to him. He isn't sure what to think. He thought he had something pretty good, but he lost it and he didn't really give them a chance. Lea told him that. Lea was right about that. He's been too nervous and afraid of everything falling apart again to want to try. He isn't really sure what to say to everything. He doesn't know if things are as bad as people are telling him and he doesn't know how he's going to deal with Marco or anything else. Cynthia is making an offer to him that doesn't have dark strings attached and it's so very appealing.

It takes a moment before he speaks.]

Okay.

"Okay" what?

[He blinks at the unexpected question.]

Um...you want me to give you a chance, right?

...good to know you're finally on our side, Roxas.

Edited 2014-09-09 02:30 (UTC)

[He sighs a little, but doesn't offer her a smile. It seems like the kind of place he would, but he gives his head a shake.]

Why do I always have to pick a side?

The short answer: because life's a bitch sometimes. It'll drop us in a crossroad and force us to pick a path. But you know what? Those are the times when you learn the most. Sometimes you choose the wrong path and sometimes you choose the right one. But you will ALWAYS learn something from it.

[ She pokes his nose playfully and smiles. ]

Don't worry about it too much Roxas. Just know that we're all happy to have you here and that we do love you.

[He doesn't respond to her light playing so much, just thinking about her words. His right fingers curl into a trembling fist as he thinks.]

Well...well I'm tired of it!

[He explodes rather suddenly, frowning deeply and looking none too pleased.]

Sometimes? What do you mean sometimes? Every decision is like this! Every single one! I'm sick of life being a bitch as you put it. I don't want to pick sides. I don't want to be bad but I'm not running off to be good either. I don't want to lose my friends just because I moved my physical body and I don't know why I have to join your side or his. Why is one better than the other? How do I know you're not just telling me what I want to hear?!

[He tugs on a few blonde spikes in frustration.]

[ She'll keep a calm face. Years and years of dealing with children at the pokemon league trained her for this exact moment. She WILL get through to this boy. Even if it kills her. ]

Roxas, I can sit here and talk about friendship and family with you all day. But in the end, it's up to you if you want to believe me or not. I just want you to know that you have freedom here. You can think for yourself, and you can do whatever the hell you want here. Eat candies till you're sick, skateboard all you want across the deck, get a pet, call our Captain "Kitty", ANYTHING. Stay friends with the Spades, no one's stopping you. But at least give HazMat a chance.

If you want to get mad, get mad at me. I was the one who told Lea we had an opening when he was asking about different crews. If I didn't, maybe you'd still be in that Spades ship right now and you wouldn't be having this problem. So take it all out on me. I can handle it. But everyone else is trying so damn hard to make you feel welcome and trying to be friends with you, Roxas...can't you see that?

[Anger, anger, anger. His mind is clouded in it and he needs an outlet, but unfortunately, Cynthia didn't take the bait and pulling out his keyblade isn't going to help him any. Instead he opts to punch the wall a couple of times as hard as he can to channel it out of him. He's left with a very sore hand and feeling very hot and breathless from the experience.]

Mad at you? Why would I be mad at you for that? First of all, not that it's any of your business about our private conversations, but I knew Lea was going to leave. For someone telling me I can make my own damn decisions, why would you think I didn't make that one? I made the decision...even if I don't like what came after that!

[He takes a few deep breaths. No one has actually accused him of not deciding on his own. His anger is making his tone and words much sharper than they usually are.]

I....know. I know that.

Do you really want to be here, Roxas?

It's fine. There's nothing bad about it.

Nothing bad, sure. But are you even happy here?

[What does that matter?]

I'll be fine. I just need to give you a chance right?

[That's what Lea told him. It doesn't matter anyway. He had all these friends on the Spades and Lea didn't, it's just the opposite that's all.]

[ Siiiiigh. Ok, new angle time. ]

You know what, Roxas? I've been only one talking. Tell me your side.

What do you mean? About what? About coming here?

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